Goodbye 2019. Worst Year Ever.

Whew child! This year, I cried, cussed, and threw fits. I was in a constant state of irritability or anxiousness of what’s to come, but there was no in between for me. Quiet as kept, my friends would contest that, it sounds like the usual me. It’s still inexcusable.

I had no time for myself; I suffered from the lack of self-care, or not fostering my hobbies, passions, and favorite pastimes. I want to do this upcoming year differently than the last.

For the new year, I created a list of resolutions in order to keep myself in check. So, here are five of my resolutions for the new year:

1. Stop oversharing on social media, sis.

I make too much of a habit of broadcasting my business on the Internet. I thought that I should be more honest about my journey. I understand what social media is used for, but for me, I don’t need to always canvas my experience. I do not need to dedicate posts to every feeling, every situation, or every success. I had to check myself, because I know I don’t need anyone to validate me with their likes or shares.

2. Dating? I’m good luv, enjoy.

A close friend told me to harden my heart. How can anyone expect me, a hopeless romantic, to restrict myself? I was designed to be this way, God knew that when She made me. I was built in the name of love, but I’m not built for dating, right now. That doesn’t mean I can’t find other things to fall in love with. I can fall in love with building myself, my career, and becoming a better woman.

But, who knows? I might meet the man of my dreams on January 1, and I would be willing to rollback on this resolution. I’ll keep everyone updated.

3. Meditate more and do yoga! (Maybe some cardio too.)

I need to actively make healthier decisions for myself. Of course, I should dedicate more time and discipline to exercising and eating cleaner, but my resolution extends beyond starting a diet or a workout plan. I believe that I am as healthy as what I’m consuming. Everything starts with my mindset. I should be breathing out negativity and ridding my mind of things that are not conducive to my well-being. I need to keep three not-so simple questions in mind:

  • What are things that serve me in the betterment of my mood, lifestyle, career, and healing? 
  • How can I continue to serve other people?
  • Why am I here?

I don’t mean to be all philosophical and ask the quintessential questions of life, but purpose is everything. If what I’m doing does not serve me, in terms of accomplishing my purpose, then it is not for me.

4. Check in with myself.

Last year, I let myself go. I didn’t make time to take care of myself in the ways that were needed. I need to regularly check in with myself. I should commit to doing my self-care routines—even if it’s one day out of the week. Self-care is more than just face masks. I need to practice putting my phone or laptop down and sleeping for more than six hours. If I don’t have time, I can always do simple things, like practice deep breathing and letting my mind rest. Remember to make a conscious effort to relax: unclench my jaw, drop my shoulders, clear my thoughts, breathe.

5. Courage over comfort.

My grandma has always told me to follow my heart and stay true to who I am. It’s hard keeping that in mind, when you’re afraid of taking a chance. This year, I made some big decisions. I was successful in some things, but in other things, success seemed to evade me. And that’s ok. Why am I leading with the expectation that my journey will be linear? Quite frankly, I don’t want the things I want, because I want the things I deserve. I want the things that are in God’s favor and timing for me. I am not entitled to anything, even if I work hard enough. I have to earn it. Sometimes, that means trying again and again until I get it right. And that’s ok.

Enough with punishing myself for my mistakes. I may cry a bit, but I will not wallow in my self-pity. I’ll dust myself off and try again. NO MORE EXCUSES. Next year, I plan on tying up loose ends. What about you? What are your resolutions?

Happy New Year everyone!

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